Merry Christmas

My husband bought a compound bow for our son he was so psyched.

My son bought his dad a wallet which he wanted to know why it was empty????
And I wrapped a bone in a piece of tissue paper. The pup went nutz!!

(There is a reason there is not a picture of me, no makeup, and stuck my finger in a light socket

hair- I will not go there with you-lol)

Christmas was pleasant and relaxing. We had a nice time together. Didn't go all out on the cooking this year. And that was actually nice. We had the basics and few of our favorites. We actually slept until 8 a.m. My husband ended up waking our son and me up. Usually my son is up at the crack of dawn. We have always just got up when Chaz was up. Few years ago we actually got up at three in the morning and opened gifts. My husband and I went back to bed, and when we awoke we saw all our son's gifts everywhere. He had spent time doing everything. Painting, then journaling, then guitar, then this. Like a little assembly line. And then found him asleep. It is a great Christmas memory. I must say I was a little home sick for family. So we went to see Marley and Me Christmas night. Not a good movie to see when your homesick. I bawled, my son bawled. I am a dog lover anyway, I mean my shitzu is my baby. Let me just say I came home and just hugged my husband and son. And all three of us were just smothering our pup. He probably was thinking we all lost our minds. Family is a great gift from God.

Christmas Caroling

We went Christmas Caroling in our neighborhood. It was our second annual caroling with other neighbors. It was a lot of fun. We had so many kids stuffed into the bed of our truck. It was cold too. I think Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer was the big hit of the night. It was the best song the kids could stay together on. We all came back to our house for hot chocolate and cookies. Good times!

My First Pair of Cow Girl Boots

Can I just say how much I adore these boots. My very first pair and I just love them. I am excited. Funny thing is, I don't have a practical use other than walking around in them. I just had to show them off. They are adorable and so comfortable. I actually bought them for my company Christmas Party, it was western theme. They are good for the motorcycle, the only horse I ride (my husbands). Just had to share. How have I lived here in Texas for 12 years without them? lol

Christmas ornament exchange

Debbie from New Mexico is my Christmas exchange siesta. This was so much fun and a blessing because I received a new christian friend to stay in contact with. Someone who loves the lord and is a real encouragement. I received a coffee mug. I have used it many, many times. Its part of the reason why it has taken so long to download pictures. Every time I was ready it was in the dishwasher. lol Matter of fact, I had to pull it from there today to take this picture. The ornament is two snowmen on a sled. One holding a star that says God loves you snow much. And a book full of treasures. I am going to read the book before work I have decided. It will be a jump start to the day. Here are the pictures enjoy

In My Generation

Serving God in my generation..... Thats what my quiet time with Lord focused on.

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your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
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How precious to(or concerning) me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
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Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.

God thinks of you and of me daily. This is something that has messed with me over and over. Viewing God as all knowing therefore he dosen't think. But man on man does he think of us.
The day by day stuff, the season by season, they are all a part of the plan God uses to fullfill his purpose in me and in you. From the verse above, before I knew to love God in response while in my mothers womb, when I brought nothing into the mix, he loved me and had great plans for his glory.

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"For when David had served God's purpose in his own generation, he fell asleep; he was buried with his fathers and his body decayed.

God has a plan for each of us. Everything is perfectly timed by God. (Acts 17:26) My time on earth is set by God. And my works were chosen and set by him too. Its hard being a Christian in the now. To be in the world as a christian and not to let the things of the world stick and keep me off balance. That's were the insecurities start. Its hard to live in defeat, but its tougher and more fulfilling to live in victory.

God meant my life on earth to matter. The purpose in my life exceeds the pain. Nothing is allowed to enter my life and touch me with out God's permissive will that does not have some bearing on HIS purpose for me. It makes all the good, bad, and the ugly pieces fit all together. It takes the stronghold of insignificance down a few notches.

I pray that God fulfills his plan in me. And removes from me what is not his will. Glory to God!!!

HE WILL NOT FAIL ME

In my quit time today, I was reminded how the enemy uses the spirit of discouragement to get me to quit. Since I was a little girl, I have learned to fear and protect myself from most things. Its an automatic response in me. It's like those commercials we see and they are standing on the big red circle, and the actor says oh yeah I am there. Well I am afraid of failing God meets God calling me. I am there. I feel God is wanting me to teach his word, I am not saying to large groups but to teach a bible study. And I am saying YES!! In 1 Corinthians 2:3 Gods word says I came in my fear and weakness. I am claiming this verse and speaking it aloud. My fear of not being worthy, of what others are going to think, and the biggest of all, failing him are taking back seat. Because I now have the fear of not wanting to miss him. I am praying for the door to be open. I just do not know where to begin, but I know this for sure I am going to begin. God word says HE WILL NOT FAIL ME!!

T

I praise you Jesus

My last night of Study in Believing God was last night. Bitter sweet, but loved this study. In the last week of study, we had to do a time line of all the events in our lives. How great, small, good, bad, and the ugly. It made me see all the God stops in my life from the sweet age of four to now. GLORY TO MY MOST BIG GOD!!!! I could not go to sleep. I was worshiping with music at 12:30 at night. Crying, praising, such a sweet time together with Jesus. And then as I am uploading pics to my blog site, I see this video of my son. And I am praising with my son while he is playing in his worship team at church. Man,oh man, my God is awesome. What a experience!! What a ride!!

Seeds Planted

Today in my bible study time it asked me to reflect on family members who had the most effect on early seeds of Christian Beliefs. My childhood is not one that I like to take a stroll down memory lane. But when this weeks study is done, I am hoping I will see all the God Stops during those times. The precious memory, is when my oldest brother, went through a struggle in his life. I don't know the circumstances of it. But I do remember him crowding me my brother and many other children in his van so that he could win a bible. He wanted and desired the word of God. He cried when he won it and I saw then how emotional he became, the hurt flowing from his eyes. It was then the Lord started stirring thoughts of Him in me. It took many, many years and a battle with God before I became to love the Lord. But then as a child he was there, showing me he was real. Thank you Jesus!!!

Calling

God is has put a calling in my heart. As anyone ever felt this and not known what it is??? Because I'm there. I am praying and waiting patiently. He is working things out in me. I want to minister for him. And not sure what, where , who, when. But I so have that desire. And I so feel unworthy. My heart is craving him and to follow him. I am praying for guidance and for God to be crystal for me. Whoever reads this blog, if you will pray that God shows me and I move forward. I am so excited, and so scared all at the same time. But I am thankful to be hearing him, and to be listening. Its been in me a while but I feel this is the time to go out and go forth.
T.

Praying and Praising My Way Through

I can never remember my password to any account I have. I crack myself up. I even save them because I know myself....and yep i forget that too. (lol) This weekend has been a good weekend. My son is starting to have a life developing of his own at the age of 11. He is now a new middle school er. I sure had to release my finger from the control button. That's so hard. I still have it there as much as possible, but its not elementary anymore. The homework that he has daily. Can I just say I am so glad that opposites attract. Because my hubby is great in the areas that I am not, and vise verse for him. Thank God!!! I do not like the fact to help him with his homework I have to be taught too. That is just not right. I did that too long ago. What happened to 2+2=4. Amazing what my son can do.
He is in a bible study at school before school that is all student lead. I told him when he is looking for a friend this is where he looks. These kids will have his back. So thankful it is there. He is also in a computer gaming programing club at school in the a.m. before. That is so him. And we have just added boy scouts to the list. He is so pumped about it all. I am glad to see him so involved and liking it. He said he likes middle school. So far likes all his teachers. PRAISE GOD!! He has the outlook of going into it of, Even if I don't like a teacher I only have them for 45 minutes than all day. At least he is honest!
He is also helping once a month in the little kids ministries. Today was the first time, and this little kid was just hanging to him when I went to pick him up after service was over. He said this little one was a trouble maker, but he was able to get him to come out from under the table by using I got your nose, and if ya want it back you need to come sit down. Too cute!!
He is not so little anymore. But he always will be to me. He asked a girl to the fall dance, and to break it to me he said mom, please don't make a big deal out of this.... I looked right at his daddy and my hubby and I had the telepathy going. He said mom see I asked you no to make a big deal. It was a look, nothing else. And his dad said she isn't she is saying "He is growing up." I love when our looks are read by one another. As a tear formed in my eye. It was so sweet, but yet bittersweet. He will always make my heart smile and always be my love bug.
Work is still stressful. But I have come to he realization to just not go there with people. Some are addicted to that drama, and some are just plain rude. And God has me there right now for a reason and get that I need to not let small offenses to stay with me. I am easily offended (man that is so hard to admit) and trying to work on that. I apologized for this reason to the girls who thought so. And I will go from there. I am still not sure if it was received but I didn't want my heart to have an issue or my witness. It was the hardest thing to do. It didn't come easily for me. But I did it. I was so on this thinking of what they will think and talk about later. Again my own worst enemy sometime. And I have decided to praise my way through that thinking. I will use praise to fight satan's attacks on me. Even thought it is not a cherry delightful atmosphere to work in, I feel God is working in my life and is using it as a building block for something bigger, much bigger in my life.
Prayin and praising my way through!
T

SUPRISE!!!

Today was a stressful day at work. But I prayed through it and yeah look at that God showed up. I was so surprised. WOW! Jesus is awesome! The issue was not resolved but it was brought to light. And that was my specific prayer request. It was an awesome experience to see God active in my prayer life. My wittness is tested at work a lot. I am growing a bit weary. Only so much drama a person can take. But he has been there beside me and revealed himself to me today. Awesome God! I still try to put him in the box by doubts of other prayer request, but I fight that daily. I resit what my mind thinks and practice replacing it with what my spirit thinks. Man its hard. We can be our own worse enemy. But I want to resist putting Christ in that box. Because he is so much more.

Resisting the box,
T

Going After a Deeper Belief

Well.... I'm new to this blogging thing. Not sure if this will even make it out there. I hope to make some new Christian friends. Can never have too many. I am doing a Beth More Bible Study with my church girls. And man I am so excited. My first ever was Stepping Up, awesome experience with the Lord. Then I attended her conference in San Antonio. WOW!!! The worship was amazing! And I believe God moved through Beth. I have goose bumps still remembering it. Amazing time!! And now I am studying Believing in God. Just started but I am up at night. Can't sleep. I am so excited to hear God speaking once again in my life. I learned that I think I have put God in the box. I didn't even realize it. Through the way I view God from my childhood experiences, to God became smaller from past ways of seeking Him. I am now putting him outside that box and the minute I did it, things are moving. In my heart, my families. WOW!! My hubby and I do not read the bible together, and now we do, its a work in progress but we are doing it! I asked him to pray for a work situation, (it never dawned on me to ask him to pray for me) and he did!!! I wanted to cry! He even called me at work to see if it worked. And I said it did and so excited to learn that he actually did it. I teared up. He was so funny he said WOW! I only said one if I would have said two there would have been lightening bolts!! Too funny! I need to capture the feeling I have and put it in a box, to come back to when I need a fresh reminder, but never again will I capture HIM in a box. And seeing in the bible how God sometimes reacts according to your faith. Huge eye-opener. I want a deeper belief in God! A deeper connection and relationship with Him. I am so excited I can't stand it. I feel like my spirit is going to implode my body. Your new blogger friend in Christ.....T