Saturday, November 24, 2012


Philipians 3:12-14 12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

Turning my race into a chase, what if that was always my motivation.  I will win my race no matter if I ran well or not.  Its the chasing after God that matters!  I am a great multi-tasker.  But sometimes I feel through all the multi-tasking I have lost my zeal.  God has given me the grace and mercy to get not only get through but come out victorious.  I need to push through the dread and the difficulty.  I am not defeated, I have the power of the ressuerction to rely on.  DO NOT LIVE IN DEFEAT! 

Here lately, I have wanted to just throw in the towel, but i know well enough not to and God's word tells me not too give up on meeting with each other.  Finding a church after you have been hurt by one is difficult. Difficult to even want to move on.  It feels like I am paralyzed sometimes.  But I am pressing on and chasing after God.  God is telling me to breath and to fully rely on him.  Press in to him through this difficult time.  I am going through a difficult circumstance but I will see God's glory and experience him!  There is hope in that.  I come waiting here for YOU Lord!  Waiting and expecting!  Jesus you are worth my chase!!

Sunday, July 22, 2012


I have not blogged in several years.  But I have had the urge to do blog again more than once.  It hit me tonight, when I was encouraging a girl to believe Gods words about her heart and worth in the eyes of God.  Not to let others speak into her what is not from God.  Hard to do at her young age.  It has brought me back to memories of how I viewed myself as a teenage girl.  I so do not want anyone especially a girl to feel unworthy.  A girls heart matters!  It can be crushed so easily.  People judge on the outside apperance but God judges from the heart.  1 Sam 16:7 

As parents we need to watch the words we speak into our children.  I am guilty!  Just a week or so ago, harsh words flew out of my mouth to my teenage son out of frustration with his listening teenage listening skills while driving.  UUGGHHH!  It has sent me to my knees in repentance.  And asking my son's forgiveness.  It's an ugly truth to admit, but it happened and I hurt his heart.  Words can hurt, but words can also heal when they are spoken in love. I am thankful for forgivenes, unconditional love and second chances.