Continued story from April 4th......
I was doubting God in using me for what I fill called to do.  Things seem to be stopping  that road for me.   I am waiting patiently but also am wondering if teaching is wear God called me.  I let my mind go there for a while. 
Then my neighbor / pastor/ friend just knocked on my door.  To let me know my friend is going down hill fast.  Not much longer the doctors say.  She is now in hospice.  I am going to see her tomorrow.  But offered engorgement to me that God used me.  HE USED ME and now there is a difference in her eternity.  PRAISE GOD!!  And just when God knew I needed a word from him.  To wait patiently and he will use me.  Its all in his time.  God is so faithful!